The Consummate

Camus Quote

Posted in art, artists, beauty, Feminism, friendship, health, humor, life, love, music, new york, oldies, relationships, Uncategorized, vacation, WTF, yoga by the consummate on May 27, 2011

Camus and his existential thought patterns. His simplistic language has always captured me. I first read L’Étranger when I was about 14 years old, Robert Smith was my dream lover and The Cure’s KILLING AN ARAB inspired me to pick up the book. As an impressionable teen I felt akin to the narrator, Meursault’s, dilemma – not being able to fit in to the contradictory and oppressive rules of society. The outsider looking in – that is me. Things could be ever so simple if I agreed to follow the rules but alas, my wild heart cannot be tamed. The personal musings of my blog reflect my emotional and mental state at moments, but what I’d like to remind you readers is that however I am feeling, know, that I am stronger than I lead on to be and that I have begun to love myself more than my tendency to punish myself.

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Call Me Mr. Telephone

Posted in art, artists, experimental video, humor, judaism, love, music, oldies, Party, subculture by the consummate on May 27, 2011

C’est Cauchemar

I have dreams with a recurring theme – they are all about me + you. I wish they would stop and we could talk. So get out of my dreams and into my car. Oh wait, I don’t have a car but you understand what I mean right?

Ikon Allah

If G-d wills it…

Is it possible that I am becoming more religious in a sense? My recent trip to Israel left me more proud of my heritage + culture but also with a profound sense of faith. I spent much time in Jaffa where there is a beautiful blend of Jews + Muslims living harmoniously with one another. One day, I found myself sitting on the rocks above waves crashing on the beach with strangers at 4 in the morning. We looked up at the stars and thanked G-d for the beauty we were experiencing. At that moment the Iman began his calls for prayers at the mosque. To hear this sound before dawn was eerie and other worldly. I felt as if I was having an out of body experience. The sound wasn’t unfamiliar, I’ve heard it before but I’ve changed.  As the vocalist Abdullahi sings “Ikon Allah” – Will of G-d, I too sing this tune. If certain things in my life are meant to be, it is the will of G-d and I leave it up to the higher powers that be. I know what I want but if it it is the will of G-d, it will come to be.

War Is Over

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Oh baby, don’t you know?

War is over. If you want it to be.

Fangs!

So many kitties here in Israel… Makes me think of my Meow-Meow + Borio. Hope they are well.

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Maygar Bound

Posted in art, artists, beauty, family, health, humor, judaism, life, love, neighborhood, new york, oldies, relationships, travel, vacation, yoga by the consummate on May 20, 2011

ADDENDUM: I extended my trip in Israel & will be flying to Hungary on Monday evening instead.

I’m heading to Hungary today. This will be my first time in the land since 2001! And guess what? THERE IS TOFU in this land now. NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM.

I grew up with my mother blasting Brahms Hungarian Dances. So enjoy.

PS: I wish you were with me on this journey

Missing Words

Posted in art, artists, beauty, family, friendship, health, life, love, music, new york, oldies, relationships, sex, subculture, WTF by the consummate on May 16, 2011

I STILL miss you.

Some Say

Posted in beauty, health, life, love, relationships, spirituality, subculture, yoga by the consummate on May 16, 2011

I work out. I work out a lot lately actually. Why? Because my MIND needs it. If I’m not working out consistently I’m going crazy. Sure the benefits of working out are amazing for my tuchus but my mind is reaping more of these benefits. If you’re depressed or feeling like your life is no longer under your control, I highly recommend (not being bossy) you start a workout routine. Your own private idaho – your little piece of meditation. Your body and mind will thank you.

Bossy

Posted in art, artists, beauty, Feminism, health, humor, life, love, relationships, subculture, yoga by the consummate on May 14, 2011

Yes, I know I am bossy. I’m working on being less aggressive with my “bossyness” but it’s hard being a woman with a brain who knows what she wants, the way she wants it and when she wants it. When you’re a feminist like me who grew up in a patriarchal culture, the sticks of California, where Jesus reigns & women are expected to submit to the will of men (especially the stupid ones) you feel so much resistance within. Have you ever seen those episodes of The Real Housewives of Orange County? Those women can’t even fucking take out a tampon without their husbands on top of them. This is a common practice in 2011? Can a lady get some time to take a shit, alone?

The lifetime of hearing my Eastern European mother sternly tell me “never let a man control you” doesn’t really add to my bossy situation. Add the nearly 10 years of living in New York City & working in my FORMER profession (selling salt to snails) doesn’t help. My “bossyness” is a knee jerk reaction and kind of like an over compensation for what I’ve experienced and still experience. So listen people, I’m trying hard here. Believe me.  It’s been over 30 years of living and things don’t change over night. So tranquilo.

Speaking of bossy, I’m currently reading BOSSYPANTS by Tina Fey. HIGHLY RECOMMEND IT!!!

PS: Am I being bossy?

Shabbat Shalom

Posted in art, artists, beauty, friendship, health, humor, judaism, life, love, spirituality, subculture, travel, vacation by the consummate on May 13, 2011

Sending you love from Israel!

New Found Freedom

Posted in animals, beauty, Feminism, film, health, humor, life, love, travel, vacation, WTF by the consummate on May 12, 2011

The King Might Punish You Immediately

Posted in art, beauty, health, humor, life, love, relationships, spirituality, subculture, swami satchidananda, WTF, yoga by the consummate on May 12, 2011

“There is a proverb: “The king might punish you immediately if you get caught. If you escape, God will punish you in time.”

You can never escape from Divine law. Don’t ever forget that.

Om Shanthi, Shanthi, Shanthi”

Swami Satchidananda

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The Long Road

Posted in artists, beauty, Feminism, health, life, love, new york, oldies, relationships, sex, spirituality, subculture, WTF, yoga by the consummate on May 9, 2011

It’s a long journey. I go in and out of different moods. Mostly, I am trying to overcome the pain of losing you. I’ve spent too much time in sheer anguish that the anger, albeit it’s ugliness, is welcome. I, unlike you, have not dedicated myself to the eradication of your existence in my life. I love and cherish you. There are so many words I want to say to you. So many things I want to explain. Perhaps in time.

BUONGIORNO

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Oh Yeah

Posted in art, artists, life, love, music, new york by the consummate on May 8, 2011

Just remembered, you cheated on your ex-girlfriend.

Here’s To Traveling With A Girlfriend

Posted in art, beauty, friendship, health, humor, judaism, life, love, music, travel by the consummate on May 8, 2011

Cheers to my girlfriend whom I am traveling with. We’re “balling out” in Italy currently where we have a week of fun + games planned including celebrating at an Ambassador’s home, shopping (or for some window shopping) at the outlet mall, running through Villa Borghese, visiting sights, seeing music. It’s a good fucking life y’all, especially with friends.

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Bon Voyage

Posted in beauty, family, friendship, health, judaism, life, love, music, relationships, spirituality, subculture, travel, vacation, yoga by the consummate on May 7, 2011

Today I embark on a month long overseas journey spanning across 3 different countries. I look forward to visiting the homelands of some of my ancestors and hope this trip will bring me clarity, inspiration, healing and memories for life.

Crack is Whack!

I AM OFF THE BLACKBERRY FOR ONE MONTH (5/7-6/8). NO TEXTING, NO BBMING, NO TALKING!

It Doesn’t Matter Anymore

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Yup.

The First Cut Is The Deepest Numero Dos

Posted in art, artists, life, love, music, new york, relationships by the consummate on May 6, 2011


This is the second time I’m posting this song but with a different artist singing.

Side note: currently obsessing over Linda Ronstadt.

RIP WINSTON KITTY

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RIP “WINSTONIAN”

Winston*, named after Winston Churchill, has gone up to the great sky where he will join the likes of  Mitten, Blossom, Tiger, Diddle, Forest, Panna + Opi kitties. I am so sorry Winston that you were unable to say a nice good-bye to my mother but I know you will be happier on the other side of the rainbow bridge with the rest of our beloved four-legged brothers + sisters. Smile down upon us often.

*this photo was taken on his last day with us. Not too bad for someone suffering from kidney failure. He purred till the end.

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Foolish Reminders

Tutto Ciò Che Serve a Me è

Posted in art, artists, beauty, health, humor, relationships, spirituality, subculture by the consummate on May 6, 2011

Misguided Angel

Posted in art, artists, beauty, health, life, love, music, new york, oldies, relationships, spirituality by the consummate on May 6, 2011

Will you love me ’til I’m dead? Even with my past discrepancies?

Nobody’s perfect. We have periods in our lives (or perhaps for some, like the subject of this song, an entire lifetime) of misguiding. But when you fall in love, it doesn’t matter what kinds of discrepancies a person has, you love to love. I feel like often we think we can accept a person and their misgivings but in reality we can’t handle these so we berate them for what they cannot change.  In this case, there are two options: #1) to walk away #2) to accept + perhaps, if we feel wronged, forgive.
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I Still Miss Someone

Posted in art, artists, beauty, life, love, new york, oldies, relationships, sex, spirituality, subculture, WTF by the consummate on May 5, 2011

Lyrics

UPDATE: I had to replace the Linda Ronstadt version with Joni Mitchell + Johnny Cash (not complaining here) but I do prefer Ms. Ronstadt’s version for my means of expression. Perhaps it’s because it speaks to my heart + what it is feeling at the moment. I highly recommend you listen to that version here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aXdaxiIXBcI.

Don’t Stop

Posted in art, artists, beauty, california, health, life, love, new york, spirituality by the consummate on May 3, 2011

Keep moving forward. Don’t get caught up in your head. Keep going, move. GOOOOOO!

Your Crystal Ball Ain’t So Crystal Clear

Posted in art, artists, beauty, humor, life, love, spirituality, subculture, swami satchidananda, WTF, yoga by the consummate on May 2, 2011

I’m off that sauce for a while.

Trusting my intuition and inner self-guide while not binding myself to karma or what another may see for me.

“Don’t waste your time in thinking about the past or worrying about the future. Some of the astrologers might be a little unhappy with me for saying that. They have a job to do; fine, let them do it. They are also needed. But don’t get caught up in these things. You can rise above your planets. Don’t get attached to thinking, “What is your sign? I am an Aquarius. Are you a Taurus? A Capricorn?” You are not any of that. You are the pure Self. Your body and mind have limitations, it is true; but you can rise above them.

It really doesn’t help much to know the future. If God had wanted you to know your future, it would have been easy for Him to leave the door open. He knew that it would not be beneficial for you, so He shut the door. It’s the same for the past; it’s better if you don’t remember all the past lives. If you remembered it all, you would still have hundreds of enemies. You might forget all your friends, but you will remember your enemies. Isn’t it better to forget them?

Let’s not waste time on all these things. Think of the golden present. Enjoy the present. You might still ask, “Don’t you think I should at least plan a little bit for my immediate future?” All right, make your plans; but remember: after you make your plans, submit it to Him / Her. “Lord, if You say ‘Okay,’ let it happen. If not, I won’t worry.

Om Shanthi, Shanthi, Shanthi”

Swami Satchidananda